One of the most difficult things for me anymore is to be accepted that I still have knowledge that is usable. I am constantly questioned as to the validity of my knowledge. That hurts as much as anything. I must always validate my thoughts, my memories. .. everything. It has become like I am a complete idiot, but someone else always needs to verify. I have balance problems I have fatigue problems, I have stiffness problems, and move slow but my mind still works. Yes I am still in here. The pain of being treated as if I have suddenly become an idiot is much worse than the normal every day pain I deal with. When did I lose tbe ability to think or forget everything I have known. I am still here.
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